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✦ The Moment I Remembered I Was the Sun

Updated: 5 days ago



☼ What I Didn't Say in the Sun Declaration

—a deeper reflection from the House of the Sun


Here’s the thing no one tells you about claiming your radiance:

It doesn’t feel brave at first.

It feels like grief.


Grief for who you’ve been.

Grief for what you tolerated.

Grief for how many years you spent pretending that dimming yourself was humility.


When I recorded the Sun Declaration, I wasn’t trying to impress anyone. I was trying to tell the truth—finally. A truth I had whispered to myself in mirrors, in spirals, in moments when no one else could see the weight I was carrying.


I didn’t share it because I had it all figured out.I shared it because I was done pretending I didn’t remember who I was.



☼ After the Camera Stopped Rolling

Here’s what I didn’t put in the script:

After I filmed that video, I sat in silence.


There was no applause. No fireworks. No cosmic trumpet. Just me, alone with the echo of what I had just spoken. And it was loud. It rang through every cell of my body like a bell being struck.


Not because I was performing.

But because I had just broken a spell.


A deep, old spell—the one that says, you must stay small to be loved.

You must stay silent to be safe.You must earn your place by softening your edges.

No.

Not anymore.



☼ What I Know Now

Being the Sun isn’t about sparkle.It’s about responsibility.


It’s the quiet knowing that your light will trigger people who are still hiding from their own.


It’s understanding that joy is rebellion, that softness is strength, and that visibility is a holy act.


It’s watching people fall away—not because you’ve become unkind, but because you’ve become clear.


It’s realizing that the more you shine, the more mirrors you become for others—and not everyone is ready to look.



☼ If You’re Here, You Already Know

If this work finds you, it’s probably not your first time being asked to rise.


You’ve likely been circling this knowing for years.


Maybe you’ve built an entire life that looks fine on paper but feels like a prison in your body.


Maybe you’ve tried to stay digestible—by smiling too wide, loving too quietly, or asking for less than you need.


But if you’re here, reading this?You already know the truth:

Your life is not falling apart.It’s falling into place.



☼ This Isn’t a Brand. It’s a Beacon.

The House of the Sun isn’t a product.

It’s not a marketing funnel. It’s not another “content series” to scroll past.


It’s a return point.


A place to come back to every time you forget that being tender is powerful.That you don’t have to hide.That you’re allowed to want a life soaked in beauty, joy, heat, and truth.


The Sun Declaration wasn’t a performance.

It was a key.

A permission slip.


And maybe, if it touched something in you—it was also a mirror.



☼ Final Truth

I didn’t set out to be the Sun.

But I did set out to live.

To feel.

To remember.

To stay soft and alive in a world that keeps trying to numb us.

And somewhere along the way, that path led me back to myself.


So I’ll ask you this:

What would happen if you stopped hiding your heat?

Who would you be if you stopped apologizing for your glow?

And who might finally find you—not because you dimmed to be chosen, but because you shined like the f*cking Sun?


☼ Come home.We’ve been waiting for you.

 
 
 

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© 2025 Nikkia Gumbs · The House of the Sun. This work is free to use, feel, remember, and share. It is not to be packaged, resold, or turned into a commodity. You may bring it into your gatherings, your journal, your therapy, your rituals. But no part of this system is for sale, nor is it available to be sold in any shape or form. The House of the Sun and the Joyfront are fields, not products. And it stays whole only if it stays free.  If you would like to utilize this work in your group or organization and are unsure if your usage violates these terms, please contact us.  Detailed information about usage can be found here

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